Stream of Consciousness

My father has been at the war for more than 2 months now. All I can think about is if he is going to make it out alive, how he is doing, what he is doing? These questions run through my mind, and I'm unable to stop them. Life has been hard without him. My mother has had to live on her own with us kids. Cook, clean, and make money for our family. I can't wait for the day when he will finally arrive back from the war. I can already imagine his big warm smile, his smell, his gentle touch when he gives me a hug. But what if he doesn't come back? What if he gets wounded or killed right in the middle of a battle? If this happens, what would have been my last second with him? Did I give him a big enough goodbye? All of these horrible, negative thoughts keep going through my mind. But I need to stay positive, I need to believe that my father will come home strong and healthy, and ready to protect me and my family. He's going to be gone for another 10 months, I don't know how I'm going to be able to make it without seeing him for this long. It has been hard, but I know that I am strong, and can make through these hard times. My life is rough enough as is, why make it worse by having a negative attitude.